You know how you google the definition of a word and they give you a sentence to understand it better. Well I did that and this sentence was given “In the flesh she is a million miles from her photographic alter ego”. That was a heavy ass sentence and I just had to share. It explained how I have been feeling lately. I think about this person that I want to be with so badly but can’t. Well, I shouldn’t say I can’t ,but I’m trying. I’m sure a lot of people will understand what I mean once I explain it further.
My Alter ego is becoming this person while trying to suppress my super ego.I want to be more of the nonchalant type of person. A person who can learn to just let shit go. I want to be more patience and soft spoken. I want to be able to control my anger and clearly think things through. I want to be like those women who can leave a man and never look back.You know that one sista who can break up and bounce right back. You can’t tell me that ain’t a gift or a skill.
We all see ourselves as someone else at times. People want to be less or more of something, to control certain behaviors. It’s something that I struggle with daily. The hardest part is getting people to see you as this new and improved you and not push your buttons to entertainment your past behaviors. It’s really an inside job. One of the hardest jobs a person can have. The requirements are: the ability to adapt to change, self-discipline and self-control. Most importantly the will to change. Which comes with growth and life experiences. We want to have certain characteristics that we believe best fits us at that time. We may grow out of certain behaviors to adjust. I remember reading about the monks, Buddhist or religious people of the past. I like how many of them lived as peaceful people who take what they can from the universe and give it back. We read about these things and want to live in peace as well. So how do you become this better you? How do you stop giving fucks and really live out your best life?